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Despair and the Bright Shining Light of Just Maybe

We like to think that one person can’t change the world. I don’t believe that’s true.

As one person, you have significant impact on your world. The energy produced by your feelings resounds everywhere. Your energy touches all of the people and buildings and cars and plants and animals that you meet every day.

Your energy can be enough to change the world. Or, at least your little part of the world.

But here’s the thing.

That little ripple of your energy goes out into the world and bumps into other ripples. And on and on it goes, a whole universe of ripples, with you at the center, causing motion to begin.

What kind of ripples do you set in motion?

Watch Your Ripples

With fast-paced chaotic lifestyles, it’s hard to be hell bent on peace, love, and understanding.

(Nick Lowe version here because there’s a sincerity here that is undeniable. He really means it. He also wrote the song, FYI.)

Maintaining a positive outlook and hope for the future of the world is a challenge.

In fact, it’s much easier to be negative. Complaining is easy.

No doubt at some point in your life, you’ve been the one talking up the latest tragedy, bitching about work, or bemoaning your latest aches and pains. Once you start complaining, it cycles on and on..

But caught on the wheel of negativity, despair meets you on the way down. Despair leads you to think that there is no reason to bother to hope that things might change because they never have and never, ever will.

Despair-Be-Gone

Therefore, do your best to make the signals you send to the world be filled with joy and happiness, peace and love.

It’s easy to write that.

But boy, is it hard to put into practice. I fail miserably.

I fail every time I get angry at work, and every time I’m angry at that slow driver in front of me. I fail every time I cuss out my cat for bothering me, and every time I complain.

But I do not despair.  I keep reminding myself of joy and love and happiness.

Frankly, even in the depths of depression, I didn’t despair. I didn’t give up hope that somehow, someday, things would change.

What I didn’t understand then, was that I had to change.

What I really didn’t understand was, that as I changed, my whole world changed.

It’s as if I turned on a little light bulb inside myself and started to shine, just a little bit.

Shine On

So for today, do what you can to shine.

Your little light may be the only ray of hope for someone today.

And that sense of hope ripples around the world. Even if your world is just right here, right now.

Shine on, shine as bright as you can.

 

Illusion, the Q Phenomenon, and We the Good People of Earth

The “Q” phenomenon is sweeping the internet. And if you’re haven’t heard about it, I’m going to do my best to explain it.

In doing so, I hope to keep it fairly simple, and offer plenty of bright shining rays of light. Because where there is light, there is hope.

This is a long post, it’s complicated, and this is deep territory. You may need to take a break, or go for a walk outside for a bit. Then come back and read some more. Just breathe.

Elephants In The Room

When thinking about the whole Q phenomenon, I’m reminded of the parable about the blind men and the elephant.

This group of blind me come upon and elephant and try to form a concept of what an elephant is. Each in turn describes a different part of an elephant.

“An elephant is big and firm,” says the man feeling a leg of the elephant.

“No, no,” says the man feeling the trunk of the elephant, “it is like a thick snake, bending too and fro.”

You get the idea, right? That no one person has the whole picture of the elephant. And that, my friends, is an apt analogy for understanding Q, conspiracy theories, and consensual reality.

Conspiracy Theories

Let’s start with trying to understand what conspiracy theories actually are.  Merriam-Webster makes conspiracy easy to understand; it’s the act of conspiring together.  And the act of conspiring is, “To join in a secret agreement to do an unlawful or wrongful act or an act which becomes unlawful as a result of the secret agreement. To act in harmony toward a common end.”

So think about a group of people getting together to make (most likely) unsavory things happen.

A theory is, “a supposition or a system of ideas intended to explain something, especially one based on general principles independent of the thing to be explained.” In other words, a theory is a possibility or alternative.

Think about this in terms of love. Yes, love. Could you put love through rigorous scientific tests and prove that love exists? Of course not. Love is something you “just know” exists. It’s something you experience, something you live. I think love is kind of like a theory, an alternative to hate.

Both love and energy have distinct energy. As I wrote in Remember the Loosh and Love, “How something FEELS – matters more than what it’s called... Energy is a hunch. It’s a tickle. It’s feeling and beyond feeling. It’s material instinct, gut instinct, just knowing. Click To Tweet… Energy is that which informs you to trust or not trust the person you just met, to know if a situation is safe or not.”

You know the difference between love and hate because you’ve experienced both. Keep that in mind as you read through this post. Experience and feelings matter.

But conspiracy theory Julie? Yes. Conspiracy theories offer alternatives, possibilities that disagree with consensual reality – with what ‘everyone’ believes is true.

Sometimes conspiracy theories are wrong, and sometimes they’re right. There is debate on when the term ‘conspiracy theory’ started to infer crazy people with tin foil hats waiting for aliens to come and save or destroy the earth.

Illusion and Misdirection

Switching gears now, do you like magic shows? I enjoy them, and even dated a magician years ago. Magicians make you believe in magic by using illusion and misdirection.

The greatest magicians are absolute masters of intentionally direction your attention to something they want you to see. This causes you to not see what is really going on.

There’s a famous magic trick called the Metamorphosis. In this trick, the magician’s assistant is put into a bag, then locked into a box.

A curtain is pulled up over the box, raised and lowered a couple of times. Sometimes the magician stands on top of the box holding the curtain.

Regardless. the final time the curtain drops, the magician has ‘disappeared,’ and the assistant stands in front of you. The assistant opens the box to reveal the magician restrained just like the assistant had been previously.

The truth of this trick is that it’s done with illusion and misdirection. You are deliberately deceived. The box has a false top, a false back, and the bag has a secret opening.

Watch this video and learn. You’ll never be able to see this trick again and not know the secret. Or, at least part of the secret; every magician adds their own special twist to the trick.

Conspiracy theorists posit that aspects of our world are a deliberate ruse – as well planned and elaborately executed as this magic trick. And if that’s the case – if conspiracy theorists are correct even in the slightest bit – then this kind of ‘magic trick’ manipulation has potentially existed for a very, very long time.

The Internet Connection

I imagine you’d agree that the internet changed the world. Perhaps most importantly, the internet connected people. That connection is local, global, and instantaneous.

The connectivity makes it easy to see and detect patterns and symbols like The Mandela Effect, and various so-called Illuminati symbols like upside down pentagrams, all seeing eyes, owls, obelisks, and eternal flames.

The internet connectivity makes detecting ‘fake’ news easy. Comparing notes and reading multiple websites, people quickly noticed that mainstream media (MSM) behaves like a mockingbird. It copies and repeats, changing the song just a little bit, yet the message remains the same: trust the illusion, believe in the magic.

To push the analogy a little further, the connectivity of the internet enabled people to see through the mockingbird illusions at who or what is “behind the curtain.” Basically, the internet is Toto in the Wizard of Oz, pulling the curtain away for all to see what’s really going on.

And Then Came Trump

Say what you will about Trump, but hear me out.

The build-up to the 2016 presidential election was relentless. No matter where you turned, someone was talking about politics. There was no joy in anyone’s eyes; we just wanted it over with already.

Trump won, Hillary lost, and the nation was in shock. One side appalled, one side elated, and most everyone thinking, “what just happened?”

I don’t know about you, but I had a gut feeling that Trump’s victory had a deeper meaning that I just couldn’t see – or wasn’t allowed to see. If our world is designed as an illusion, the election may have just been smoke and mirrors anyway. And the ‘wrong’ guy won…the guy who no one in the mainstream media thought could win did win.

But since the election, a curious thing has happened online. People who might never talk in real life started to talk online.

They started to come together and discuss everything – all the ‘weirdo’ conspiracy theories like how the deep state runs everything, how 9-11 was an inside job, how there was more than one JFK shooter, how the PizzaGate scam was actually real but deliberately covered up, and whole lot more.

And slowly, our doors of perception started to be cleansed. The curtain started to move aside as that pesky little dog, Toto, sunk his teeth in.

The All-Knowing All-Seeing Omnipotent Q

In October 2017 a mysterious voice began posting anonymously on boards. The voice identified itself only as “Q.”

We’re not talking about Q on Star Trek: The Next Generation, although they seem to share some similar characteristics:

There are many theories about who Q really is, but for this story, you don’t have to know the answer to that question. You DO have to understand that Q started to drop clues – also known as breadcrumbs.

Or in Q-speak, “think Hansel and Gretel.”

Hansel and Gretel is a simple story of two children who follow a path of bread crumbs to a candy cottage. They are captured by a cannibalistic witch who keeps Hansel in a cage and makes Gretel her slave. The children escape by outwitting the witch. The Q phenomenon alludes to the idea that, with the internet, we the people are now capable of outwitting the witch AND sinking our teeth into the curtain to reveal the truth.

Regardless, “Anons” – regular folks like you and me – rapidly followed the initial breadcrumbs and began to use their collective knowledge to piece together the parts of an intriguing picture…and one that fit with many conspiracy theories.

The theories seemed to tie everything together: government, entertainment, commerce, military, medical, science. And they tie into things  that you and I (the relatively good and normal people of the world) really wish weren’t true like pedophilia, human trafficking, cannibalism, human sacrifice, and more.

Here’s a simple example. Do you find it kind of odd that ten companies own so many brands?

 

On the other hand, when you start looking at the various breadcrumbs dropped by this Q, that simple image transforms into something more like this:

Dylan Louis Monroe
The map is by Dylan Louis Monroe. Read more about it here.

Crazy, right? And it ain’t just corporations: It’s everything.

For more information on the Q phenomenon, you’ve got to follow Q (aka Follow The White Rabbit, a Matrix reference,) and search and read. Here are some people I like; they have a good way of interpreting the Q posts:

I think the coming of Trump didn’t portend a civil war. Instead it brought a secret, silent war that is (apparently) focused on ending decades of rule by a small percentage of people.

It’s a war you can glimpse at if you follow Q’s breadcrumbs. It’s a war played out behind the curtain, with Q allowing you glimpses along the way.

Start A (Personal) Revolution

For a completely different perspective, astrologers have noticed that stars are aligned at the same positions as they were in The American and French Revolutions. If you have been waiting for changes, they are coming. And you, me, and everyone else will design the results of these changes.

Dana Mrkich’s 2018 report, which I’ve written about before, covers the various star transitions in detail. Regarding the American Revolutionary War, she asks:

What was that war about? What did the Founding Fathers fight for and intend? What did they do right? What did they do wrong? Where can we do better? Where are we aspiring for freedom and independence on one hand, but causing repression, hurt, or injustice on the other?

The first event she talks about is 1773 Pluto in Capricorn at 21 degrees: that’s the Boston Tea Party, the ‘culmination of a resistance movement” against the taxation of tea.

That exact degree isn’t repeated until 2019, yet we are starting to feel the effects already as tensions are building. Frankly, if you’re not already feeling tense just reading this post, I’d be surprised.

Mrkich further suggests that the Boston Tea Party (and any other event that happens in this long Pluto Transit) was then and will be going forward about power: “getting rid of old power structures or dynamics that no longer serve, so that a more authentic power can emerge.”

Further, she writes that there is, “…destruction, demolition, and dissolution, before the new can be born.” She writes, “Pluto also reveals things that have been hidden and going on behind closed doors…”

That’s what the Q phenomenon is about: revealing hidden stuff. Lots of it. And starting a conversation about what to put in place once the hidden stuff is out in the open.

The Pluto in Capricorn transit continues through to 2036-2037. Frankly, the transformation of our world is only just getting started, and WE get to make it happen.

Good People of the World Unite and Shine Your Lights

These things I’ve talked about are all tiny cracks in consensual reality. They shine a light on a collective Pandora’s Box that holds some might ugly things.

Don’t look away. Don’t stick your head in the sand and say, “oh no not me.” We are all in this together. And by and large, we are good people.

We love our families, neighbors, communities, children, and have dreams about the future. We love our pets, your pets, and all of nature. We have many differences, yet we strive to listen and respect those differences. We care deeply.

As the years move forward, remember these things. Remember love and free will, and kindness and caring. Act on forgiveness. Reach out.

Q often uses the phrase, “Where we go one, we go all.”  We are all together in this.

“All for one, and one for all.” We are the musketeers. We are the ones we have been waiting for to transform our world.  You, mean, and everyone else will design this new world together.

Breathe

Now, with all of that information. Breathe. Remember love? That thing you can’t quite describe, but know it when you feel it? Feel it now. Remember beauty.

Reading Soothes My Soul (April 2018)

Every so often, I take time to reflect on the books I’ve read. I read like the house is on fire, like I’m running a sprint, like there will never be enough time to read all of the books I have stacked in my house.

200 of those books are cooking related, and I created another website just to be able to share those – and especially the more quirky of those.

And easily another 200 or more are purely for pleasure. There’s fiction from a friend, metaphysics of all kinds, mysteries, science-fiction, poetry, biographies. You name it, I’m probably interested in reading it.

Reading Through Winter

January and February I read voraciously, perhaps to keep my insides warm from the cold winter weather outside. By early March I had stopped reading. That happens every so often, too. I read so much in a short time span that I have to stop and do other things. Like clean the house or cook dinner.

This time on my ‘break’ from reading I decided to learn Delores Cannon’s hypnosis/past life regression technique called “Quantum Healing Hypnonsis Therapy.” I have to do some practice before offering that up to everyone.

And then the new Maisie Dobbs mystery came out, and I’m back to reading like a crazy lady again.

Full disclosure: I am an Amazon Affiliate. If you click on a link and buy something (even if it’s not the particular book,) I receive a little compensation.

Chumpi Illumination by Eleanora Amendolara. After my experience at the Sacred Waterfall with twelve crystal Chumpi stones, I finally broke down and bought a set of seven. These are mystical stones from the Peruvian Andes mountains; mine are made of meteorite and are (without a doubt) alive. This deck of cards is helping me understand the basic principles behind the stones I have.

Mystery School: An Insider’s Perspective by Gayle Clayton. Reading and re-reading books written by your meditation teacher is a very, very good thing. It helps tickle my memories, and certainly reminds me of an amazing time in my life. And, if you’ve ever wondered what exactly a mystery school is like, this will help. Your brain will be overloaded with information: exactly what’s needed in this Western world to break through our overthinking over-obsessed-with-details-and-facts-and-figures world. A remarkable accounting.

  

Five Lives Remembered and Between Death and Life by Delores Cannon. If you’re unfamiliar with past life regressions and/or the work of Delores Cannon, these two books are good introductions. “Five Lives” is the retelling of how she and her husband started regressing people and found one person who was particularly good under hypnosis. “Between Death and Life” explores what happens to a soul after it leaves the body.

To Die But Once by Jacqueline Winspear. Move over all you other books, private investigator Maisie Dobbs is in the house. I read this in maybe two or three nights of intense reading. I would do it again – probably when the next book is released. My hopes are up that that will be next year.

The Maisie Dobbs series of mysteries stands out because the characters are true-to-life. They’re believable, likable, and tenacious.  At this point in the series we’ve seen Maisie and her cohorts through the first World War, personal struggles, and now the second World War is starting. Sigh. If only Winspear could write as fast as I can read.


Stealing Shadows by Kay Hooper. I picked up a series of three Kay Hooper books at the autumn book sale at my local library because they looked interesting: a psychic helps police catch killers. Unfortunately, this got just a little too dark for my tastes, perhaps even a little too unbelievable. I’ll donate this series back to the book sale for next year.


A World Without Whom by Emily J. Favilla The subtitle for this book is “The Essential Guide to Language in the BuzzFeed Age,” and it should come with an English teacher alert: you won’t like this one bit. I did, but perhaps that’s because I am online so very, very much.

This truly is a guide for the new way of writing that has developed online. It’s not about proper sentence structure or well-developed thesis; instead, it’s about accessible, friendly writing. And she likes the Oxford Comma – hallelujah!


The Fifth Season by N.K. Jemisin.  So many good series, so little money to go and buy all of the books. If you’re a fan of dystopian fantasy, you owe it to yourself to seek this series out. I’ve only read this first book, but it’s worth finding.

And as it’s the 2016 Hugo Award Winner, your local library may stock a copy or two. As I said, this is a trilogy, so if you’re able, you can definitely grab all three books here.


The Forgotten Room by Karen White, Beatriz Williams, and Lauren Willig. This is a pleasant, predictable read based in the gilded age of New York City. You know this story: servant girl falls in love with wealthy boy and there are complications. Yawn. How three successful authors can write such an average story, I’m not sure, but they definitely pulled it off here.

The Wall Of Night Series by Helen Lowe: The Heir of Night, The Gathering of the Lost, and Daughter of Blood. If you thought I was enthusiastic about The Fifth Season, you haven’t seen anything. This fantasy series by Helen Lowe blew me away. I gobbled these three up as quickly as I possibly could. That’s saying something because Daughter of Blood is more than 700 pages long. The series is epic – a battle between good and evil led by two awkward teenagers with impressive abilities – and the world-building is magnificent.

Still Life With Bread Crumbs by Anna Quindlen. This is more of ‘love’ story that I like. A famous female photographer based in New York City, newly divorced and financially unstable, rents her fancy loft-like apartment and escapes to a small country town. Naturally, she falls in love with a local boy, because doesn’t that happen to everyone? Fortunately, Quindlen adds just enough twists and turns to make this book charming.

The Brightest Fell is the ninth book in The October Daye Series by Seanan McGuire. I really tried to dislike this series, I really tried. At dinner one night I said I thought the first book was well written, but just too violent for me. And then I read another two or three, and didn’t stop until I finished the whole series. It easily took me less than two weeks to glide through all eight books; and now I long for the magical world of the faerie with all of the political intrigue, infighting, and imaginative world-building.

October “Toby” Daye is a half human half fae (as in fairy or fairy-ish) hard-boiled detective type who also happens to have considerable talent with the decidedly not human skill of ‘riding blood.’ When she tastes blood, she sees and experiences the story of whomever the blood has come from; and given that she’s a detective, that blood is often coming from a freshly dead body. If you love fantasy, this is a great series to consider.

In Praise Of the Multi-Faceted Self and a Life Well Lived

Conventional wisdom suggests that to be successful in life, you find a career that you really like, and that you work at that career until you retire. After many years of self sacrifice -and focusing on your family and career- you get to “retire.”

And then finally, in retirement, you get to do some of those things you’ve always wanted to do.

I say that wisdom is poppycock. It’s nonsense. And it’s frankly boring.

I like doing different things, love having different interests, and would be bored if I waited to retire to do things I love. Besides, I don’t think I’ll ever retire.

What Would Your Ancestors Do?

I love researching my ancestors, and I think about the variety of things they had to know how to do – just to survive, let alone have a good life:

  • tend a garden
  • care for livestock
  • stoke a wood stove
  • cook on a wood stove
  • collect the harvest
  • store the harvest
  • make clothing
  • make their own house
  • help build a neighbor’s barn

They certainly weren’t just sitting around and watching Jelle’s Marble Runs on YouTube!

(maybe that’s just me?)

From research, I know my ancestors were actively engaged in their community – and that’s in addition to the work they did to maintain a home and family. In an average week they might:

  • Go to church on Sunday
  • Go to a political meeting
  • Attend a board meeting for the county poor house
  • Go to town to get supplies
  • Visit friends, neighbors, relatives
  • Host a church picnic

And this was before electricity and phones were in every house, and before everybody had a car: they were doing this with horse, buggy, pencil and paper.

And frankly, it wasn’t that long ago – maybe a hundred years at the most.

Could You Live Like Your Ancestors?

Have you watched those shows where modern day folks try to live as ancestors used to?

There was Frontier House that challenged three families to live in the Montana wilderness as homesteaders.

Or perhaps you’d prefer 1900? Try The 1900 House:

My ancestors worked really, really hard, most every day. And, if I was to swap places with any of them, I’d be totally clueless.

I will guarantee that I wouldn’t make it in either the Frontier House nor The 1900 House.

If I were to ever participate in something like this (and I have no idea why I’d ever agree to it) I’ll bet I’d be the one who pouts and complains all the time – lol.

When faced with the idea of doing things that don’t bring me joy (looking right at you housekeeping) I am more likely to go read a book.

What Would They Think My Life?

And I don’t know what my ancestors would make of my life.

I’m single, in my mid-50s with no children. I live alone, in a house I own. I work at a day job that doesn’t use a typewriter or a mimeograph machine. At my job, I rarely print anything on paper or take notes on paper. I mostly sit or stand at a desk and look at two screens; sometimes I talk on the phone.

And outside of my 9-5 job? I’m a life coach – a job description that still baffles people. I’m a recipe-collecting, book-reading, fashion-savvy modern woman.

And more importantly, I embrace all of the facets of myself – not just one little thing over there in the corner that will make me big bucks so I can retire and live “happily ever after.”

I’m more interested in living the happily ever now.

What Did You Love To Do As A Kid?

When I answer this question, one of my great loves was long stretches of uninterrupted time. That’s freedom to me – time to do whatever I want, even if it’s just sitting around doing nothing.

I love doing nothing.

I loved reading books and twirling my baton. I loved cute clothes and baking cookies. I still do all of those things – including twirling my baton every so often.

As I got older, I learned that I love listening to people tell their stories. It was even better if I listened carefully, and was able to make one or two suggestions that helped them see things in a new light.

That’s what life coaching is all about: taking those many things you love, and arranging your life in a such a way that it’s possible to do the things you love on a regular basis.

As in now, not someday in the future when you retire.

Besides, the retirement where you have a pension to provide for you is a relatively modern invention.

Never Retire

I doubt I’ll ever retire. There is no pension waiting for me. There might be social security – if we’re lucky and that support survives another 20 years.

Besides, my ancestors were pretty hardy and active. For example, my great-great grandfather Wallace passed away at nearly 90 – but only because he tumbled off of a ladder.

Meaning, if it hadn’t have been for that fall, he would have kept going indefinitely. And probably enjoying his life.

That’s my life goal these days: enjoying life, having fun, and doing a little something I love every single day.

Some days, that’s working on genealogy. I love the research part, and really like the detective work involved in piecing together the mysteries of the past.

And as a life coach, I here to help you figure out what enjoying life means to you.

We focus on now, not on “someday.”

Besides, I’d rather be an interesting find for some future genealogist, wouldn’t you?

Remember the Loosh and the Love!

Not long ago I was blazing through my Twitter feed and read something like this: “I would be happy to fight in the streets over the memo.”

The memo, meaning the Nunes memo that appeared and disappeared from mainstream media quickly. The memo that mainstream media passed off as no big deal, and a whole lot of other media and people read as clear evidence of treason.

And it’s not an exact quote, mind you, but the message and sentiment was clear to me:

  • This person is willing to stand up for their beliefs – yeah!
  • This person is also suggesting skirmishes, battles, chaos, and uh oh – the taint of and desire for war.

And to that, all the molecules in my body screamed no, no NO!

Fair Warning

This is not a typical “I’m a life coach so let’s all say Namaste and set S.M.A.R.T. goals” post. Instead, this is a weird-o, kinda political, way out there post.

I’m going to lead you on a journey into the weird.

If any of this is challenging for you, try to open your heart and mind – just a little bit. I work at keeping mine open. I fail miserably, but you know, I’m only human just like you.

And by all means, if at any point you don’t want to continue this journey, simply move along. I’m OK with that.

This is weird stuff. And I LIKE weird stuff.

So, let’s start with a baseline: I don’t want war.

But with a country portrayed by the mainstream media (MSM) as deeply divided, I often wonder what we can do to avoid an inevitable and violent clash between right and left, republicans and democrats, strict constitutionalists and progressives.

For years I’ve read psychics, channelers, conspiracy theories, and such. It’s been my secret delight to read the stuff that’s ‘way out there.’ And reading it helps me learn how to form my own opinions.

Not that I often voice those opinions, but rather, that I keep them very close.

So here, I’m stripping naked – kind of. At the least I’m letting my freak flag fly a little higher.

Uber Liberal Reads Ultra Conservative Tweets

I’m uber liberal. As in save the Earth, “why can’t we all just stand in a circle holding hands chanting Kumbaya,” hug-a-tree, supporting legalization of all drugs, free access to healthcare, and free access to higher education for all.

I’m THAT progressive, liberal, and whatever the label is these days.

But I’ve learned that it’s a good practice to strive to read voices that are different than mine: it broadens my view, and allows a little light of understanding to shine into my consciousness.

In that spirit, I set out to read conservative voices on Twitter.

I was surprised to find parallels between conservative Tweets and ‘weird-o’ words of psychics, channelers, and conspiracy theories. And we’ll get back to that bit, I promise.

Spirituality, My Short Story

Spirituality also helped me come to the ability to write this challenging post.

I was raised in the United Methodist Church. One year I went to summer church camp and experienced a ‘feeling’ that went beyond anything else. Call it what you want, but -in retrospect- it was a mysterious, mystical occurrence.

It it was loving, kind, all pervasive, and happened in nothing more than the blink of an eye. It changed me. And then life went back to normal.

Over many years I avoided church. I couldn’t explain why, not even to myself, but knew that my answers….

(That’s an important concept. These are my answers, and they probably won’t be the same as your answers. Suffice to say that I was willing to keep questioning every step of the way – and still do to this day.)

…my answers came after participating in sweat lodges, wiccan circles, mystical rituals of powerful energy with no words. I read countless books. I meditated an awful, awful lot. I read online until my eyes dropped out of my head and rolled around on the keyboard.

I was hungry for something that I couldn’t put my finger on. I was for a secret that encompassed nearly anything and everything you could possibly name.

That answer, however, came softly. It was a dawning awareness, a sly smile. And it’s nearly impossible to explain except with words which sound religious.

It’s funny how life loops like that. Time loops. Chaos theory. Refraction. The time continuum is not a straight line, but rather a loopy rope with turns and corners and hills and straightaways made from our own designs and desires coupled with those of all others on Earth at this time.

Time is an illusion. Words are an illusion. Everything is energy.

My Guides

Like any good new age girl in the 90s, I was looking for spirit guides. Eventually, I found/met what I perceive of as a group of guides.

Now most people tend to report that their guides have names. Some of the guides are from specific planets or they hold important-sounding designations. Just imagine this:

My guide is Rajactastana from the distant planet Blogonsia and he/she is a 9th dimension entity talking to me about love and love and more love.

But not me.

I’d ask for a name or names. There would be a flurry of energy that felt like panic. I imagined iridescent robes flowing as my guides turned to one another.

“She’s asking for a name – what do we tell her?”

That question was followed by passionate debate telepathically in a language made only of light that moves so quickly you and I couldn’t perceive it. I could only tell there was something going on.

And to this day, the only answer I ever get back regarding my desire for names:

Energy is more important than any name we might give you.

Got that? The energy is more important.

Energy – how it FEELS – matters more than what it’s called. No matter what “it” happens to be. It can be a book, a group of ‘guides,’ a person I just met, or a politician. Energy can refer to how an object feels in my hands, or how a certain shirt just ‘calls my name’ in the store.

What Is Energy?

Energy is a hunch. It’s a tickle. It’s feeling and beyond feeling. It’s material instinct, gut instinct, just knowing.

Energy is that which informs you to trust or not trust the person you just met. To know if a situation is safe or not.

You respond to the world constantly because of energy, instincts, plus prior knowledge and experiences.

And in our plastic, love-the-celebrity world, we desperately need new definitions. We need new ways of thinking, feeling, sensing, and relating to one another.

Learning about energy is one step in that direction.

But Back To Conspiracy Theories or “Let’s Talk About Aliens”

Let’s pretend, shall we, that aliens exist.

Actually, we don’t need to pretend, or stretch our imaginations too far: We have plenty of popular culture sci-fi space-themed books and movies and tv shows to help us along. Like Mork, the silly and thoughtful alien created by Robin Williams who checks in with his boss, Orson, on the planet Ork.

Let’s Pretend

Let’s pretend there’s an alien culture that you and I can’t see, but we *might* be able to feel.

These aliens come to Earth centuries ago and, unlike you and me who eat food, these aliens in our imaginations eat energy.

But like junk food junkies consuming massive quantities of Cheetos and Coke, these imaginary aliens prefer – nay crave – strong negative emotions.

If you’re despondent, argumentative, or in pain in any way, they’re giddy with delight.

Imagine these pretend aliens around their alien table, gobbling up mountains of mirth, avalanches of anger, and tippling torture on the side. Yum!

In conspiracy theory land, these negative emotions are called loosh.

Our imaginary aliens crave loosh the way you and I crave double stuff Oreos.

Or maybe that’s just me…

Anyway, imagine the pure delight of our pretend aliens if the human things are contemplating war, or thinking about hurting someone or themselves:

  • Snack time!
  • Alien Thanksgiving!
  • Buffet!
  • All you can eat!

Perhaps Some Examples Would Help

Still having a hard time picturing aliens eating negativity? Think again. The idea / concept / reality has been around for quite awhile…

Star Trek The Next Generation’s encounter with the entity Nagilum in Where Silence Has No Lease (Season 2 Episode 2.) Nagilum is fascinated by the various ways humans might die.

There’s the classic scene from The Matrix where Neo ‘wakes up’ only to learn that his energy is being harvested:

Carlos Castenada writes about “flyers” that hover in fleeting shadows. This website has a more full transcript and description. Here’s an excerpt from Castenada’s Art of Dreaming novel.

We have a predator that came from the depths of the cosmos, and took over the rule of our lives. Human beings are its prisoners. The predator is our lord and master. It has rendered us docile; helpless. If we want to protest, it suppresses our protest. If we want to act independently, it demands that we don’t do so…If you look out of the corner of your eye, you will still see fleeting shadows jumping all around you…They took over because we are food for them, and they squeeze us mercilessly because we are their sustenance. Just as we rear chickens in chicken coops, gallineros, the predators rear us in human coops, humaneros. Therefore, their food is always available to them.

Naturally there are various war deities who chomp on all matter of ugliness. In fact, that Wikipedia page lists more than 30 nations who have war deities – far too many!

Then there’s this intense and lengthy article from Bernard Guenther that explores the concept of aliens – and a whole lot more.

And if you start digging, you’ll find even more examples.

Two Wolves

Perhaps it’s all too much for you. Try this tender Cherokee parable instead. It’s about a white wolf and a black wolf, and which wolf we choose to feed. You might have seen this one making the social media rounds.

Back To Reality (Such That It Is) And Those Parallels

I mentioned seeing parallels between woo-woo conspiracy theories and conservative tweets. Like these:

  • a belief that a cabal runs the world
  • a belief that the cabal is evil
  • a belief that the cabal loves war
  • a belief that the cabal loves anything that causes polar opposites – therefore fighting.
  • a belief that the cabal will do anything to maintain the opposite viewpoint of peace, love, and understanding.

Deep State Dive

Of course, you could also spend a lot of time digging into deep state, secret space programs, hidden technology like Tesla’s free energy, or the mysterious messages from Q alluding the imminent actions. Naturally, few of the actions are reported by the main stream media because MSM is controlled by our dark overlords.

(Or so the thinking in conspiracy theory land goes, which I’m inclined to agree with.)

If you want more information on any of this stuff, start googling or maybe read this PDF copy of William Cooper’s Behold A Pale Horse. The mysterious Q shared the link not long ago.

Fair warning: I read through the first two chapters and had to stop: there’s so much information that turns our current world upside-down that I could only sip a little from the fire hose. Cognitive dissonance to the max, baby. But it will lead you into the rabbit hole…and you’ll keep going.

Polarization

Dana Mrkich’s 2018 Energy report talked about how so much is happening so fast:

What we are seeing online now is a mass awakening to all sorts of truths, coming at us from all sorts of angles. What we’re also seeing is an extreme polarization of energies. Divide and conquer is a strategy that keeps us fighting among ourselves. It blinds us to unacceptable situations. Boxing something as a left or right issue keeps half the population from confronting so many things that need to be acknowledged and addressed….

We have people who are awake in one way, but remain asleep in other ways. So it can seem frustrating at times, but the overall volume of awakened energy on this planet has shifted upward in a big way over the last 18 months. Also keep in mind that just because someone holds a different view or perspective regarding something doesn’t mean they are asleep or wrong on that particular issue. They may be highlighting a really important aspect of it that you hadn’t seen before. 

All fascinating, but not the point.

There are people and beings in our world who knowingly and willingly seek to keep us fighting forever.

Think about that: never-ending fighting. What a delicious dinner of loosh!

Suggestions

While you’re dealing with your own cognitive dissonance now, here are some tips for mental digestion:

1. Remember the Loosh!

Negativity feeds the demons – your own inner demons and our pretend alien friends. And as an empath who suddenly finds herself feeling extra-cranky for no particular reason, I know that negativity also feeds the negativity inherent in those around you, so your black cloud storm tantrum can spread to others. Remember the loosh, and feed the white wolf of your soul.

2. Come from the Heart

This is natural, and it’s not advertising. This is how we are naturally, with those we love, with babies, with pets. Do your best to come from the heart at all times. When you slip up, take a breathe, try again.

3. Listen More Than You Talk

Practice listening deeply. Listen with your heart and mind wide open. Listen without thinking about what you’ll say next.

4. Talking Council

In groups and meetings where topics of a sensitive nature are being discussed and passions are quickly heating, resolve to use a talking stick. This is a Native American practice of using a literal stick (or other object) to pass from one speaker to the next. It gives each person a chance to speak, and invites each to listen deeply.

A New Way Forward

Ultimately humanity must find a new way forward. We must find a way to communicate that discourages negative or violent action. We must seek a middle way of understanding, empathy, love, and respect.

Our world cannot make this kind of ascension transformation overnight that is not only about returning the US to constitutional rule, but also about a deep, internal spiritual change inside of each and everyone of us.

There will be some ugly parts (there always are.) Let’s hope it doesn’t come to fighting in the streets.

In closing, I doubt I’ll live to see the full result of this transformation. I’m in my mid-50s, and this change will take at least another fifty years. But I am here now at the start of this -whatever it is.

And part of my job as a human is to a hold space in my heart and mind for the future of humanity as a peaceful people.

What other ways can we find new ways forward?